An ode to 2014 // hello 2015!

  Let me just say this upfront... Happy New Year everyone! I'm still finding it relatively difficult to wrap my head around the notion of another year. It's odd because I find myself in the same position, this exact time in 2014. Yet it seems this time I'm filled with even more convictions. 2014 was the most eventful year in my existence, as I've learnt/experienced/picked up/done an infinite amount of things. It was the year of many, many firsts - but also a year equal in both happiness and woes. 

Coming into 2015, I feel as if I've lost a lot - whether it still be in the ongoing process or not. This is combated with reassurance too, that I've gained a lot. I don't feel much different, just as if I'm in completely different circumstances. I won't deny though, 2014 has granted me dozens of good things. I am so very thankful for the year. Here's a recap of some remarkable highlights of 2014:

+ Had a sentimental summer and start to 2014. + Made new unexpected friends and gotten closer to them. + Lost my concert virginity to Phoenix (whom were phenomenal, may I add). + Adored the nights and days. + Had a school year where everything changed. + Embraced spontaneity. + Enjoyed the best of both worlds (Singapore and Australia). + Been outside plentiful. + Achieved feats I never could have thought of. + Stayed in Bali for a few tropical paradise days.

+ Dealed with highs and lows of emotion. + Got braces (on my top row). + Made the most of being fifteen. + Danced, partied and celebrated a heck of a lot. + Followed my pledge to eat somewhat better. + Appreciated new art/media forms. + Found some fantastic music. + Been inspired and gifted ambition in Melbourne. + Met a fellow blogger for the first time. + Learnt to keep certain life lessons close. + Said goodbye on many occasions.

  I've been so attached to 2014, I'm not sure how I'll cope with the all-new responsiblities. There'll be driving, intense Year 11 studies and overcoming my constant, overwhelming uncertainty. I'm always a little apprehensive over change. Good things, for me, never quite last. It's true, haha, no matter how much I want to dismiss the fact. But I'm hopeful for more unexpected good to flourish my way. I'm excited and fearful. I know I'm not alone on this. We're all in for a rollercoaster ride.


  I won't say, 2015 will be my year. Because there are things we can control, and things we cannot. What I cannot control is the manner or order in which events play out, but I can control myself and how I go about it. There will be resolutions, goals and other moments to pay attention to. I need to stop holding onto the past. I need to let go of people I've wishfully pored over, timely regrets and everything I beat myself up about in between. I just need to let go. I have so much to be thankful for already in the present and past, I shouldn't be surrendering to the negative. So what do I say to the new year?

  I say, welcome 2015. I hope you all ring in the new year with pride and joy, of having gotten through yet another year. Thank you for following me on my journey, and I trust that you all have been paying utmost gratitude to yours. And keep in mind, you have another 365 days until another rolls around! Stay safe and well, my beautiful friends.

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