Here are a collection of thoughts I've accumulated throughout the week. They've been as scattered as can be, much like the remnants of winter blooms. I haven't exactly been blogging in timely accordance, so I shall let myself speak freely.
I don't know what I want to be. In a few years, in a dozen, in a decade - I'm clueless really. I always answer with 'happy' every time I asked, but that's an answer which either gets me laughs or confused looks. (Oh society, you funny thing.) However, I do have a rough finalization of my upper high school courses. Course counselling and briefings in my school have proved useful. It's a blessing - the guidance we're equipped with, though that does add more pressure to the process. I know I'm prone to change in career paths, hence my perpetual uncertainty. Here's hoping I steer myself in the right direction.
I'm growing to love winter. In the past, not so much. But now I've completely embraced the tranquility of it all; the sweaters, steaming hot beverages, bonfires etc. The outrageous shivers I get at times would be the main setback. I confess, I am absolute rubbish at layering. Despite the fact that Australian winters only ever range from single digits to the borderline 20's, I still wish Snuggies were acceptable outerwear. It is incredibly tempting to turn up to school in my pyjamas on a daily basis. Not to mention, my hands are constantly cold. (I wish it was a deep, philosophical metaphor. Cue my inner Oliver Tate, hah.)
I'm reminding myself to live in the spectacular now. 'The Road' by Cormac McCarthy - an intensely descriptive novel we're assigned to read in English - has certainly encouraged that profound concept.
It's a bit easier said than done, since I have a lengthy list of plans lined up. The motto for the last week of the semester: cherish what you have, and/or come across. I cannot deny my approaching elation though. Or the fact that I have a liking towards relaxed days in school. But the holidays are so close I can almost taste them - as you can imagine, I'm all fired up.
Enough about me.
What's been on your mind?
You're young so you've got plenty of time to figure out what career you want. And here, who says you've got to stick with it too? People change jobs all the time! :) x
ReplyDeleteThat's some worldly, good advice. Thanks Seryna! x
ReplyDeleteI think that exploring your interests in greater depths can help you realise what you want to do. Often we find out what we want to do when we discover what we like to do the most. What has been on my mind lately has been how to get to a friend's house that I had never gone to before. It was actually an easy drive and practically a straight path to get there.
ReplyDeleteThat's a fantastic attitude. I enjoy writing the most, and would probably be the only field I'm really passionate in. Fingers crossed we all figure it out, hey?
ReplyDeleteP.S. I'm not one with navigation, so I commend you!
I've got no idea what I want to be either :/ 'loved' 'happy' and 'strong' are things I would like in my future, but everything else is pretty much a mystery. Lovely blog. xx
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Thank you, glad to know I'm not alone! I'm also flattered. :)
ReplyDeleteGo with the flow! That's what I keep telling myself. (Although I always say 'happy' because there's nothing wrong with that really.) I bet your winter's are our hottest days! Recently i've been thinking about going to university. ALOT. Like, what if i end up living with total idiots or what if nobody on my course likes me. It's petty stuff really but I guess that's just my anxiety getting the better of me!
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That's the kind of attitude I aspire for :) Hahaha and you may just be right about the different climates. I say, you should by all means go to university if that's a dream of yours. If it's a possibility, place it under careful consideration. And let's hope the anxiety won't overwhelm you, I know how tough it must be to have mental setbacks! x
ReplyDeleteHonestly, my boyfriend (of about ten months) and I just broke up a few weeks ago. Although its hard, I know it's for the best. It's given me time to think about what I want and love. I realize now that people will always disappoint, there will sometimes be sadness but it's about accepting these facts and moving on. This post is amazing, it's inspired me to write more of what I just want to on my blog. Thanks beautiful.
ReplyDeleteIt's commendable of you to come forth and speak about it. I know it must be hitting hard, but already I can tell that you've a strong attitude. It's true indeed - people will always come and go, and hurt you in the process. I quote, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for. And no thank you, for being such a lovely human being. I've been tired of the lack of genuineness nowadays. x
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