'You start it right, you tread so light... If we wait, we can make it somehow.' - Bombay Bicycle Club
Hello everyone, hope you had a swell Monday. Today was day one of transition camp for me. I decided to go despite my nosebleeds and Sreya's protests (thank you for being my motherly figure by the way). I was greeted by lots of fresh faces which brightened up my mood instantly. We engaged in borderline-boring activities for hours, but luckily I was in a comfortable group. My drama teacher was our instructor and I'm honestly happy about that. The experience was pretty average - by experience, I mean the food. Nonetheless, I had fun. Here's hoping day two will be good to me tomorrow.
Things never go as expected - ah, a timeless saying that will forever live to remind ourselves of its presence. In the past fortnight I've missed a week of school (and I most certainly do not want to return). My case of illness has allowed me to achieve nothing. Along with that, I spent the weekend baking and aimlessly watching movies. (How about that for a living?) I managed to get through Submarine, A Walk to Remember, The Art of Getting By, The First Time and 21 Jump Street. I particularly favoured The Art of Getting By due to its realism. The protagonist has a bleak outlook on the future, and in a way I could relate.
Now, let me explain. I am going to say it straight up: I lack ambition. I lack the ambition to push forward; the drive to keep going. I'm referring to long-term ambition, really, for when I'm a young adult. I haven't a clue what I want to be, and even if I did I would very much doubt that I'd be capable of reaching my dreams.
Everyone was outside playing this afternoon in the field, but I settled indoors with Saffron. It was windy; I was exhausted. We lay down and talked a bit about our future. She's got a clear idea of what she wants to be, what she wants to achieve. A few of my friends like Sreya (see her post about ambition here) and Yuxian are pretty set on their future. I have so much admiration for them, as well as for people who have already immaculately planned every last detail of their upcoming years.
So my dear readers, do you know what direction you're heading towards? Or are you waiting and wondering just like me?
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Beautiful blog!
ReplyDeleteWhere from Australia are you exactly? I live in Australia as well.
Hey Sarah, thank you! :))
DeleteI'm from the Western states. As I can see you hail from Sydney. Most bloggers do, ah what a shame! Would love to have been a part of that local community.
I'm glad that, after a week of illness and minimal motivation, your day was brightened by camp! It sounds like an enjoyable and relaxing time, and I'm happy to hear that you had fun. :)
ReplyDeleteAs for ambition, I think we're nearly opposites in that respect; I'm a very ambitious person, and I've had at least some kind of idea of where I want to go for years now. That's not to say it's stayed the same--in fact, it's almost constantly shifting and evolving--but I've always got some kind of direction in mind.
However, I don't think that there's anything wrong with "waiting and wondering", as you put it. After all, it's a cliche thing to say, but we're young--we don't have to make all of our decisions now, nor do I think we necessarily should. These are the years when we don't have to worry about what we're going to do with our lives; and even if you don't have a plan, you can still have a sense of direction. My sister Jordan doesn't have a plan mapped out the way I do, but she still has direction and meaning in her life with short-term goals, friends and hobbies to keep her busy. I think as long as you feel content and fulfilled in your life, you're on the right track. :) And as for reaching your dreams, I beg to differ--I think if a person sets their mind to it, they can achieve anything!
Best wishes to you, Rachel, whatever you decide to do now or later! <3
Thank you, your comments always cheer me up, Taylor. You're one of my best readers. It's interesting to see a differing opinion, see, that is the exact kind of ambition that I admire. A goal to work towards, that is.
DeleteOnce again, thanks for those enlightening words. Tell your sister I sent her a virtual highfive ;)
Aw, shucks. *blushes* You're welcome; I'm just glad my comments mean that much to you, and I hope that you're able to find your own goal to work toward! :) Hugs!
DeleteI love this post because it's a serious conversation one must have with themselves. I am graduating next next school year. I really have to think about my future and I feel I have really narrowed in on the things I want to explore in my future. Quite honestly everyone will end up changing their minds, your friends may. Mine did and my mind is always changing so take your time and wander as much as possible.
ReplyDeleteThanks Blessing, it's always a pleasure to blog. I think you're right, nobody has ever touched on the fact that anything could happen, even if we do have an idea of our future. It's quite reassuring, so thank you again. xo
DeleteDon't worry about not knowing what your ambition is. Some people know what they want to be and what they want to do but many do not. You're still young and there's always time to figure out roughly what you want to do with your life. Just take everything as it comes and stay happy! :}
ReplyDeleteI'll heed your advice as well, thanks for the valuable opinion :)
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